Why are Mothers always feeling guilty about something or the other, despite of the fact that they are giving more than they are capable of !!!
#Story of a guilty but not that guilty mumma
When I was initially informed about my pregnancy, honestly i was not prepared for it #guilty. How could I be, it was just 3 months after my marriage, but watching my husband dance out of joy after i shared this news with him made me realise that this will surely be the Best thing to happen to the two of us.
During pregnancy when I was not able to eat certain healthy things because of how it smelled or tasted, again i felt #guilty .. But its difficult to express the nausea you go through during Pregnancy and it wasnt on purpose that I was hogging some Unhealthy food..
During delivery I had to go for a C- sec, because of 3 cords being around my child’s neck, again #guilty.. For not taking the pain of delivering your baby in a natural way.. But believe me its only the operation part which is painless during a C-sec. After a couple of hours it feels like the pain of stitches will kill you and you start believing that you will never be able to work normally ever again !!
After Delivery while my baby was able to latch on me easily .. She used to cry a lot and after 10 days I realised that I am not lactating properly and I have to start Top feed, again #guilty.. But i tried my best to increase my milk supply , tried all kinds of food items, medicines and powders available to me, but nothing worked and I had to stop feeding her after just 1.5 months, again #guilty.. Though she is healthy and had a proper weight gain even with complete top feed.. I used to feel so depressed about my baby lacking all essential nutrients and I felt like she wont be attached to me, because anyone can bottle feed her and she doesn’t need me..but Now she is 8 months old and she loves and needs no other person more than she needs me..
Soon after she learnt how to turn and started turning on both the sides, One of the days she fell from the bed and cried on top of her voice, again #guilty.. I tried my best.. Rushed towards her as fast as I could but I couldn’t stop her from falling.. But you cannot protect your child literally around the clock.. Sometimes this is how they learn and grow..
After She started Crawling and Standing with minimal support she often bangs her head into things .. # guilty guilty guilty.. Its not like i dont pay attention but I practically cant avoid some of these things from happening , and I feel this is how she’ll become strong..
Its just been 8 months and I already have a long list of my Guilty moments.. This is just the beginning, once we become a Mother we just want to be sure whether we are doing it right or not.. So, To all those Mothers out there (New or Old) full of guilt.. You are doing and giving your best.. If u want to be sure of that, just look at your Baby and it will instantly give you a huge smile in return.. That is the moment to know that you are doing it right !